I was constantly told by other women, even my own friends, how much they envied me for being a stripper, how bold and sexy I was.  What a vain delusion we were living in!

I found this on a site I stumbled across this morning.  I could so relate to the woman’s story, being caught up in Hollywood’s underworld of Strippers, Prostitutes and everything that goes along with that.

It is coming to my attention that I was part of what is called “Human Trafficking”. I put myself out there because I was leaving my Husband and had no money – I felt the underworld energy coming from him and he was becoming abusive and VERY MANIPULATIVE. You can read My Story here.   My Blog is not working right now on that site but I am trying to get that fixed.

I really like what this woman is saying because I have thought since my ordeal with these people that maybe I was being to Prudent and Inhibited.  After all, TV and the Movies portrays all that as Glamorous and if you do not wear a “G String” out in public on the beaches or where ever – You are the “WEIRD ONE” that has problems with your sexuality.  I was actually buying into that!

I KNOW now that my CALLING is definitely Music! How and when this will happen is still unknown to me… All I know is that I can feel it… I tell myself I am too old for this and start comparing myself to others but down deep inside I can feel something that was put there by God himself and all I can do is feed it at this time and become comfortable with it.  God works in strange and mysterious ways and that is so true in my case!

FREEDOM AND EVERLASTING LOVE!

I want to wish EVERYONE a  WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS and to hopefully experience the “True Spirit” of the Christmas Season.  I am looking forward to the New Year and the “Limitless Possibilities” that will be available for those who are truly seeking.

“Oh what a tangled web we weave when at first we practice to deceive”…

“Only the Pure in Heart shall see God” - I’ve been watching TV again… watching so many different kinds of shows – but the one thing they all have in common is “Good vs. Evil” and “Light overcomes Darkness”. I can’t help but feel sad and worried about the condition of the Human Heart in reality though. It seems that we have been watching the Sun slip away and give way to Darkness, Deceit, Greed, Carnality, Abuse, Control, and Paranoia.  Does anyone besides me remember the 60’s & 70’s when life was actually FUN?!?! We didn’t have to be afraid of having our papers in order, making sure we didn’t step out of line, or be afraid to voice our opinion about whatever?  Although it was starting…

Our generation had alot to say and alot of “Light“ to give.  I feel we still do - it has just been suppressed by Power Hungry, paranoid, greedy politicians in whatever level of “Control & Power” they are in.  A person could have their whole life taken away at any given time without even knowing they were doing anything wrong!  There are so many things we CANNOT do or could get us in trouble with the “PEOPLE IN POWER” that a person could be “FREE” one day and find his “RIGHTS” stripped away from him the next!

What kind of Democracy is that?!?!

People are so separated now because of deceit and fear that it is hard to know who your friends are and even if you are lucky enough to have one or two or maybe even three good friends – they might turn on you if for some reason the creepy fog of “DECEIT” creeps into the equation for whatever reason.  When the people that are in “CONTROL” cannot “TRUST” their fellow workers because of infiltration of Gangs, Political Parties, Cartels, Operations, Foreign Affairs, etc. how can there be PEACE of any kind?!?!

We have to go within and “CONNECT” with what is “TRUE, RIGHT, and “VIRTUOUS” and remember “INNOCENSE” - ONLY THEN CAN WE “BELEIVE”! ONLY THEN CAN WE “BECOME”! ONLY THEN CAN WE LIVE AND CREATE OUR RIPPLE IN THE POND THAT WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

I can remember feeling so FREE and ALIVE when I was on the road with the Truckers separated from the Hustle and Bustle of EVERYDAY living and being a part of something that was “GOOD” - “TRUE” - AND “RIGHT” but it also became “UGLY” and DARK”.    Now I am left with the knowledge of a “FREE SPIRIT” but living in a world of “CONFINEMENT” and “FEAR” that I might step out of line and end up imprisoned or even DEAD for what I BELIEVE in or just being HAPPY and LIVING MY LIFE IN JOY… Should I just become “PASSIVE” and only focus on what is “GOOD” ? Should I not be “AWARE” of what is missing or wrong – will that make it right?  Will that bring more “GOOD” into the world?  I’m sure it will help create positive things to happen in my life and in so doing I will be in a position to “EMPOWER” others with the “BLESSINGS” that come my way.  I therefore will be able to be a “LIGHT” in the “DARKNESS” and “CREATE” positive “ENERGY”. The more “POSITIVE ENERGY” we create, the more we fill the “DARKNESS” with “LIGHT”.

There are 5-6 or more jet streams heading East!  The things hanging down are our Christmas Lights…