I have not been feeling very well for the last week or so and I thought I was on my way to recovery when this morning I had a relapse.  I was just laying here thinking about what I heard on a MP3 I had downloaded from Mike Dooley this morning and had listened to before going to sleep.

He was saying that alot of people that do not have Medical Insurance do not have it because they would rather spend the money on Jet Skies and FUN STUFF. Even though some people may choose to do this, I have been among the ones that have had to beg, borrow and steal while holding down a job just to make ends meet and raising my kids on my own with no help or support from my family.  And now, because of Corporate Politics, my husband has had to change jobs and we are without Health Insurance once again!  So, if I get bad enough to have to go to the hospital – we will not be covered – so I have to think about the $$$’s instead of my well being.  We still owe from last time I had to go in with Congestive Heart Failure!

I got to thinking… I wonder if Mike Dooley is aware of people like us – and there are soooooo MANY!!! And I was also wondering if he had seen the movie “SICKO” by Michael Moore, which is a Documentary about Americas Health Insurance Scam.  Even if you are lucky enough to have Insurance – the Insurance Companies are out to make $$$ and care NOTHING about the person at all!  In fact, it is “Standard Procedure” to “Deny”  ALL claims the first time around and then when the patient calls in to request “why” – they are put on hold and then put in a “Loop” of automated “Run Around” to discourage them from calling and hopefully they will just “GO AWAY”! This Corporate mindset is what is KILLING many Americans today!

I then got this strange feeling come over me like I was surrounded by Beings that REALLY cared!  They were VERY concerned that I could not see as well as I should let alone all the other ailments and discomforts I was experiencing.  It was such an AWESOME sensation to feel that LOVE, CONCERN and COMPASSION from another being!

I am hoping this is what the New World will be like!  I am hoping this was a parting of the “Veil” for me to experience the Integrity, Compassion and LOVE these perfect Beings will bring us.  When we experience this pure LOVE for ourselves from another being, then we can pass it on to others and in turn, when they feel it – they will pass it on!  WHAT A CONCEPT!!!

“When traveling twice the speed of sound it’s easy to get burned.” Those words ring so “TRUE” for me.  The world is changing at such an OUTRAGOUS speed that I think many of us feel Dizzy or Light Headed.  Maybe it is just part of growing older…  that could definitely be part of it, but the “Dimensional” changes that are taking place for the whole Planet add to the already “Normal” changes of getting older – which entails, becoming “Centered” as part of the Spiritual Jouney to go “Back Home”.

When I was studying the Bible and having an “Intense Spiritual Experience” about 30 years ago, I came across a verse that spoke to me:  It said, “Some of you will not “See Death”.  Let me see if I can find it…  

Here it is:

Luk 9:24  For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosoever will lose his life (ego) for my sake, the same shall save it.

Luk 9:25  For what is a man advantaged, if he gain the whole world, and lose himself, or be cast away (”sell-out” “sell your soul” being unable to connect to your “Inner Child” or your “True Being”?)

Luk 9:26  For whosoever shall be ashamed of me and of my words, of him shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he shall come in his own glory, and in his Father’s, and of the holy angels.

Luk 9:27  But I tell you of a truth, there be some standing here, which shall not taste of death, till they see the kingdom of God.

I believe for me anyway, what Jesus is saying here is:  That some of us will be able to see and experience “Heaven on Earth” BEFORE we die.  I feel this is what the “Ascension Process” is.  It is sooooo exhausting but VERY ADDICTING to say the least!

I feel myself changing EVERYDAY now!  Some-days I get so overwhelmed, I just stay in bed!  I am thinking that I just need to get used to a more positive and magical life and “Let Go” of the Negative mindsets that I am so used to having.

I find that I am vibrating much higher than most of the people around me except when online of course….   and this causes my Fibromyalgia to flare up.  I feel I am living in the 5th Dimension and can commune quite naturally and easily with invisible beings and really enjoy their company!  It is hard however for me to communicate with physical people who are still in the 3D world.  I actually get VERY SICK and in alot of PAIN!

I am becoming more and more AWARE of what triggers these feelings and learning that I AM NOT ALONE OR CRAZY! I get NO support what-so-ever from my Family and feel bad for days after talking with them on the phone.  “I am just now recovering from “Mother’s Day”…  I go through periods of severe depression because I just feel like there is NO place for me in this world.  I am moving past that now into “Empowering My Child Within” to create our own 5th dimensional world in the midst of the 3D reality around me regardless of what others do or think.  HOW EXCITING THIS IS!!!

I have started taking some Homeopathic Remedies that I am offering in the Giftshop now, and they seem to be helping alot!  I just started taking the Nerve Tonic and Mood Tonic and WHAT A DIFFERENCE I am seeing!  I will make links to these two items as soon as I input them into the store.

Everyday that I live and Breath in the positive Photon Energy that surrounds me and align myself to be a co-creator with it, I am creating a 5th Dimensional Reality for others to experience when they visit “My World”. And by becoming one with “Who I AM” - I am becoming stronger to repel the negative energies I feel when communing in the 3rd Dimension.

I feel I have always been a 5th Dimensional Being trying to survive  in a 3D world and the wear and tear of forcing myself to do things I just did not vibrate well with is what brought on the Fibromyalgia.  I KNOW now that I will be HEALED – it is just a matter of time and yes – “Mind over Matter”… but the “Mind over Matter” is not something that happens overnight.  It takes alot of “Inner Work” and SUPPORT helps tremendously!  I get alot of support saying – “well, if you say you are sick, then you will be sick”… making me feel bad and beating myself up for causing my own problems.  Yes, we know this is true, but there is a reason for the sickness – you cannot just say you are not sick and be healed!  You have to find out and work out the reasons behind the sickness.

I feel a much better approach is Validating someones Illness and let them know you understand they are indeed sick and then SUPPORT them on their “Healing Journey”.  Fibromyalgia is such a crazy dis-ease because you are having to constantly tell people that you are sick and by doing that, you are re-affirming the illness to stay!  You start getting dizzy from chasing your tail!

I am not going to concern myself anymore with “Other Peoples” opinion about what is “WRONG” with me or what I “SHOULD” be doing.  I am EMPOWERING myself to do  and feel however I feel and not worry about what anyone else thinks.  What does it matter anyway….?