My Journey Home

I just watched “The Messenger” - Story of Joan of Arc and also  “Women Raped in the Congo” a documentry about what is happening today in the Congo because of the Civil War that is taking place there.

I could so relate to both stories! Joan of Arc was Spiritually Raped by the Chruch and people in Power just as women in the Congo are being Physically raped and tortured for the same reason.

“CONTROL AND EGO”

The same is happening and has been happening in our country for many years. Somehow it is masked over with Diplomacy and Etiquette of somekind.  Women like myself that have experienced this kind of abuse are humiliated into silence, rejected by their husbands, children, family and friends and made to feel WRONG and sick.  They are made to feel like they are of “No Value” to society and deserve and/or deserved everything that happened to them and whatever fate may come their way down the road.

I have felt so guilty about EVERYTHING my whole life!  I was taught from an early age that I was at fault for other peoples actions so to this day I feel responsible for ANYTHING that goes wrong!  What a HEAVY burden that is!  I feel I do not deserve to be treated like a “Dignified Human Being” because I am “Damaged Goods” and belong in the Rubbish Heap along with all other “Damaged Goods.” 

This is a “DIS-EASE” that is plaguing our entire planet and has every since the beginning of time.  It is always there – we are the ones who determine whether or not we want to become it’s victims.  By that, I do not mean we choose to be victimized by this Evil Spirit but the “Aggressor” decides to become a victim to it -  “A PAWN” in the War between “Good and Evil”.  We choose which path to take by what is TRUELY in our hearts.

I did not have to come online and tell my story and it has been very trying at times to follow through with it, but deep down that is what I “CHOOSE” to do instead of keeping quiet and dying silently while letting the Evil Forces stay in place.  That is what they are telling the women in the Congo to do also – so I guess I am doing the right thing even though I have had soooooooo many thoughts of quitting and pulling everything down and just not caring anymore.

I KNOW now – THIS MORNING that THIS MY CALLING! To FOLLOW MY HEART and let GOD’S LOVE FLOW THROUGH ME and if that entails being BURNED AT THE STAKE and MOCKED by people who don’t have a CLUE or the GUTS to stand up for themselves – then

“SO MOTE IT BE!”